On Determination

I came home yesterday with two books and I think they warrant a blog. The first is Josef Koudelka’s Prague Invasion and the other, Nicholas Nixon’s The Brown Sisters.

Koudelka’s book is a collection of images taken during the 1968 uprising in his own country. It has been published in different forms over the years but never in such depth and breath. This edition by Thames & Hudson, is longawaited, and my only regret is that – it should have been a hardcover. Those familiar with this body of work will know that he went through a lot of personal danger to get them out.

Nixon, to me, is obsession-personified. For 33 years and more, he photographs the same four sisters. You see them age and change. So much of it is in the images, but even more lies beneath the surface. I want to know what went through their lives, their relationships with each other, with the external world, with Nixon. I love this simple project the first time I saw it more than 10 years ago and I am just glad I am now a proud owner.

Koudelka’s book took 40 years, Nixon’s project is in its 30++ years. There is something in them that makes me even more determined to stay the course.

Thank Goodness There Are Pictures

I have spent the last five days in Bangkok, in the comfort of a five-star hotel, and my daily routine involved a two-hour massage and three good meals. Three hours from I was, is Rangoon and Sichuan Province, where many people have died, lost everything they had; or trying to make a difference.

Should I be feeling guilty?

Just before you accuse me of being an indifferent individual, hold on.

Every night, I went to bed while listening to the news updates on either CNN or BBC. Every morning, I ate my breakfast accompanied by IHT, Bangkok Post and South China Morning Post.

I thought, from time to time, if I should cut short my holiday and head to one of the two disaster zones.

But would I be able to make a difference?

For the record, I received a call from an old contact at a NGO wanting to know if I wanted to go to Chengdu for them. I didn’t say no, I just said I was in Bangkok and won’t be back for another few days.

Earlier, a friend from Shanghai had asked if I would go with her. She felt that she had to do something to help. Later, I would read on her blog that she has decided that going to the disaster zone without a concrete plan would just add to the inconvenience of others, and she advised others against just heading west.

I am torn between wanting and not wanting. And let me try to explain why.

Some years ago, I was very active as a volunteer of a NGO in Singapore. I was their photographer for a year and when the Asian tsunami happened, my role was expanded into that a photography coordinator, where I got to decide who went where. It was in this capacity that I witnessed the best and the worst of photographers (and wannabes).

I met young people who insisted that they be dispatched into the “war front” though they wouldn’t even lift a finger to help move a box in our base in Singapore.

I also worked with photographers who went under our organization’s flag but were using our contacts to do magazine assignments they have gotten on the side.

One of the worst cases was a photographer who demanded that I switch an assignment so he could be in a place he wanted.

I had also the displeasure of dealing with schools that sent a whole bus-load of students (with catered lunch boxes no less) to our collection center, only that they were causing more fiasco than anything. And don’t laugh, the school even alerted the media about their participation.

Thinking back, I realized why so many of my worldly friends were less than encouraging when I told them about my NGO links.

Personally, I still want to help in whatever possible, but I am going to be patient about the whole episode. When the hype has died down, when I believe I can contribute positively without feeling that I am just another hawk, I would.

For the time-being, I am satisfied to be an arm-chair media critic, dishing out my opinions on the disaster coverage.

First, I would have to say the The Straits Times, my hometown newspaper, did exceedingly well with China. I was left speechless with the way words and images were used to put across the situation. Although shocking, the front page picture on May 14 (Wednesday), of a man holding the hand of a dead child, says so much for me.

I was looking for letters protesting the use of those images in ST, similar to those I read in the South China Morning Post, but there were none. I don’t assume that nobody in Singapore is unhappy with those gruesome images.

In all fairness, I didn’t think any of the pictures used made me feel as if the papers were trying to boost circulation.

I am, however, more cynical about the way the Chinese leaders are portrayed in the media. Though I applaud the apparent open-ness, I should point out that the open access to the Chinese leaders were mainly restricted to the Chinese press (at least according to the Wall Street Journal).

Instead of being critical about this and just dismiss them as staged photo ops, I rather subscribe to this other thinking: now that the leaders have set themselves such high standard, they are subjected to higher level of scrutiny. At some stage, I am sure someone will ask: were they for real?

I would hate for them to do a Rudolph Guiliani, who so shamelessly touted his role in 911, during his brief presidential bid, only for many who knew the truth to out him.

At least for now, we can be happy that good and important images have been coming out of Sichuan. I personally believe that as long as the rescue work is not finished, the world needs to be reminded, however painfully, there are still people who need help.

After all, can we ever say that the people viewing the shocking images are in more pain than those trapped under the rubble?

Design Your Own Future

Just yesterday, I received an invitation from a former student to contribute something for their graduation book. Here goes, with pleasure:

Have you all noticed the number of NTU teachers who have gotten into trouble in the past few years?

One stole women lingerie, another ratted on his lover to the immigration department. Then there was this teacher who disappeared overnight after a student allegedly reported him for sexual harassment.

All in all, life is tough as an academic, even more so if you are a teacher at the School of Communication and Information.

Let’s face it, all the stereotypes I heard about journalism/media students turned out to be true.

The SCI students I encountered in my four semesters as a part-time lecturer were among the brightest and most talkative. They questioned, they talked back, they spoke up, they told me off, they even critiqued my critique.

But a handful also knew how to butter up by sending me complimentary notes, like, “You are a cool dude.” Or, “My mom thinks you are happening.”

Which decent human being can resist such accolades?

A few did cause me some problems by being too passionate with their declarations on their blogs. And of course, a few crossed the line of the student-teacher divide by making fun of my favorite football team.

I realized by the second semester that I kind of acquired a reputation of being “mean, sarcastic and demoralizing’. So some smart students pre-empted me by putting themselves down in their self-critiques, in an attempt to get me to get off their case. Little did this group know that I was also capable of being kind and motivating.

I guess some of you might remember that I always liked saying that design is a communication tool, and a person who can communicate with effective design stands a better chance of changing the world.

Unfortunately, or fortunately, some students applied my effective design mantra to the area of their personal grooming. A few times, I had to pretend not to notice the rather provocative clothes. Mac Lab 3 could be very cold, I was worried that some of you might catch the chill with so little cloth.

Yes yes, you could argue that it was effective communication, but did you forget my other hang-up? Like, appropriateness?

It has been almost two years since I last stepped into the campus, but I am always so happy whenever I received an email or a call from one of you.

This is not a secret, so I can say it: any form of communication from any one of you will always make my day.

So, what are you waiting for?

Oh Baby! Show Me Your Pictures.

I can only pray that all dinner conversations are so delicious.

At dinner last night, our conversation accidentally drifted into the sometimes-forbidden area of bedroom antics.

Don’t get me wrong, I am not about to beat on the old 377A horse, but since I brought it up, I should just at least make me position clear: What happens behind closed doors of consenting adults, should be private. And that is even if the amorous sound that comes out of the closed doors fascinate us.

So, let me get right into the topic (pun intended).

In the last few months, our friend (whose name shall be kept a secret to spare her of excited callers) has gotten very familiar with the sex lives of the neighbors who live above her. “I now know when the husband is in town because sometimes they will have sex six times a day.” Not just that, she also knows they do it on a squeaky brass bed.

I am very sure our friend is not envious of the actions that her neighbors are getting, neither is she worried that they may be hurting themselves from overdoing. All she wants, is just some peace and quiet so that she can read, watch TV, sleep, and occasionally make the office conference calls.

Our friend knows the name of the female participant, but we, the shit-stirrers, were more interested to know how she looks like. “Wouldn’t it be embarrassing to run into them in the lift?” “Nope, hasn’t happened yet.”

I think I might be tempted to tell them, “you look very happy.” But thank goodness, I don’t live in the same apartment block.

I have to confess that for a long time between my main course and the arrival of desserts, I was wondering how she looks like.

This is bad, I know, but we all subscribe to stereotypes. The woman definitely has a certain look, and she definitely wears a certain kind of clothes and shoes. So is that why we – three women and a man – want to know how she looks like? To confirm that she fits our sketches? Or to satisfy our curiosity that we really don’t know such a person? Or on the contrary, to be able to say, “I knew it, got to be her, she has that look”?

Now what kind of look would that be? Would it be the same as a particular June, who was sued by an ex-lover for allegedly giving him herpes? For we too were all in unison in saying that we need pictures of June when the case goes to trial. Nobody, as far as I remember, was interested to know how the plaintiff looks like.

If the two women I mentioned turn out to be the plain Jane, the comment “still water runs deep” would most certainly come up. If they look even remotely close to the typical Sarong Party Girl, I can guarantee you that we will all be saying, “I knew it.”

Do we just want to know that June is really not May? Come December, we should all know the answer.

I have photographed a fair share of criminals and accuseds in my former life as a newspaper photographer. So much so that I had given advice to some of them. Generally, if you want public sympathy, look remorseful and walk with your head down. Don’t threaten the photographers who are just out there doing their jobs. Don’t smirk, don’t look too smug. And if you want to show your ignorance, walk confidently but pout your lips. Wear glasses but not shades. Be nice to photographers but don’t pose like a supermodel.

June, if you are listening, it means no spaghetti tops OK?

Too Busy For Posterity

This blog is inspired by a recent column by Financial Times columnist Anthony Haden-Guest. As my mark of respect for him, I have adopted the same headline for my entry. First thing first, read him regularly at www.ft.com/arts/columnists/hadenguest. He knows his stuff.

In this Oct 5 article, Haden-Guest, whose specialty is in collecting art, wrote about the late British photographer Terence Donovan but I feel that what happened to him could happen to anyone.

Donovan is not a name likely to pop up instantly when we talk about British photographer, but he was contemporary of David Bailey and was, in his own ways, a great success.

Donovan’s problem was probably common. Caught up with his busy commercial shoots and commission, he had no time to think about his place in art and history. He left behind a lot of works which were uncatalogued. And we all know this – if they are not indexed in some ways, they don’t exist. And if they don’t exist, it means nobody know about them.

I think we can agree that an acceptable measure of a photographer’s success should contain some of the following elements – his wealth, the volume of his life work, his influence, his place in history. But can we assume that the most “successful” ones are the ones who have everything?

Moving out of photography, football fans will probably remember some late English star died broke, and before his death, a precious medal he won had to be sold to pay for his debt. He had no wealth so to speak, but no one could deny his place in footballing history.

I had to go to the dictionaries to check out the definition of ‘posterity’. The word ‘future’ appeared a few times in my searches. But we all know the true meaning of the word, implied or otherwise, carries a much heavier weight.

Posterity would probably mean, in this case, the responsibility to leave behind a meaningful trace of existence, so that the future generation would be able to refer back in time and say that half a century ago, a certain Terence Donovan was making some of the best glamor images of his time.

It doesn’t stop here. Many would argue that photographers are, in their current pursuits, writing history for the generations to come.

However, in reality, the issue is much more complex. For a start, who, other than the most confident of the lots, would dare to think about his place in history, without fear of being called egoistical?

Posterity, unlike fame and wealth is also a more ambiguous concept. I think, for a start, stripped of all the grandeur, posterity is just a proof that one exists/existed.

But starting from this standpoint has its problems. Does it mean every photographer has the obligation to carefully archive all his works, providing ample documentation so that future researchers will be able to get the who-what-where-when-why-how answers?

Or should one start thinking of posterity when he is certain that he already earned a place in history and that he better provides accurate documentation of his life and work?

When I went to the Jacques Henri Lartique retrospective in Pompidou some years back, I was struck by how Lartique himself was a compulsive chronicler of his own life. The volume after volume of his sketch books, visual diaries, shed so much light about what he was thinking. But more importantly, they also provide useful insights to the time he was living in.

Words needed

When I first started working with museum curators and artists, I took a rather dismissive approach to text that accompany imagery. I remember I had been on a jury for a photography competition and when an exhibition was being curated, I was invited to give some input. The show curator, who was on the same jury with me, had taken pain to interview and write about each photo – what the photographer was thinking at the point the photo was made, what he wanted to achieve. I think because a lot of the photographs were not that exciting to me in the first place, I saw little value in the textual accompaniment. Some looked like they were apologizing, some over-glorifying. I probably made a mistake by advising my colleague that words were not needed. What I am doing here with my series seem so contradictory. As I get a bit older, I am lesser and lesser of a believer that a picture equals a million words. I think it does have some bearings in some cases but context is important, the photographer’s thinking is important. I think a lot of photographers take a confrontational position against text, and thus the unfortunate workers of text, because they often see them rival for space and attention. A lot also has a snobbish attitude about text because it is like saying your pictures are not good enough. But more likely than not, photographers are also lazy. I confess that I had been guilty of all the reasons. For this turnaround I really have movies and moviemakers to thank. Recently I bought a copy of Paris Texas, and out of curiosity, decided to enable the feature for director’s commentary. Oh my goodness, what a discovery! I learned so much from Wim Wenders’s comments about why certain scenes were deleted, what he was trying to achieve with certain things. It is just so educational and entertaining. I also have the book Image Makers Image Takers by Anne-Celine Jaeger to thank. All the interviews I read so far have been totally honest and insightful. In particular, I was very very happy to read Alec Soth’s quote: “Whatever you’re interested in, go for it. You can only find your voice if you’re not intimidated by doing stuff that’s been done before.” This is how I interpreted it for myself: I think I have enjoyed some success and that had sometimes stopped me from wanting to take risk for fear of failing. Too often I wanted to embark on a certain project and then would give up because it has been done before. I had been afraid of being compared, I had been afraid of wanting to compare. I have had preconceptions of how certain images should look like. I have been too concerned of being accused of copying. I have been too in awe with the photographers I admire to believe that they could inspire me to do better.

Who are we trying to impress?

Most of you know that for the past few days, I have been living in the world of Facebook. After getting past all the gimmicks, I was determined to make it work for me. Sure, chitchatting and getting reconnected with old pals is great but I am happy that I discovered a few things that are bringing me closer to what I think is nice. One such example is the ability to play Scrabble online. For those of us who work from home, you know what I mean: life can be lonely when you are processing 1000 images. Yesterday, I did something on FB which yielded some interesting findings. After posting some very unobjective images of Myanmar, I had a few instant reactions. A mom-to-be, who is more used to me sending her cute pictures of my nephew, said she couldn’t go on after looking at six pictures. A few wanted to know more about the context. Unsurprisingly, all who commented were not photographers. They seem to be mostly concerned citizens who are genuinely upset/concerned about the state of the world, compared to most photographers who who usually asked if I shot film or digital. I think it is also not far-fetched to predict that if I post my images in a public space like FB, more people click on them than if they were on my personal site. Well, it doesn’t bother me at all as long as they are seen, and hopefully, result in something positive. In fact, I should be pleased that I have now, the opportunity, to reach out to new audience. After all, shouldn’t my world be bigger?

Version 3.0

Most people begin their blogs with a mission statement of sort. Why am I here; why am I wasting my time; what am I going to write about; what are some of the things I won’t touch on, how often I intend to update, etc etc.

These questions, let me assure you, are some of the things I continuously ask myself.

In the end, it boiled down to one thing: I am a big mouth with a lot of opinions, it is sometimes difficult to only talk to myself;)

To start a blog is a big responsibility.  It means I have the obligation to keep it current and interesting.  Some would even say: don’t forget responsible and factual.

I hope to share in this blog, my honest opinions about people, images, actions, technologies, trends, opinions. I also hope to continue good conversations with passionate people.

Now, wish me luck.